Deep Breath..... I guess the time has come, what I never wanted in a million years for my life. It appears I have no choice in the matter. Cameron and I are getting divorced.. Just saying feels like a dirty word.. We are in the 20th Century and with all the people getting divorced, I had always thought and hoped it would not be me. Not to say I think it is wrong, but I didn't really view it as a possibility, I always thought if I fought hard enough, I wouldn't be one of the statistics. I guess now I am changing my view on what I wanted in life or what I think my life will look like in say 10 years. The only thing I see is the fear of the unknown, but the suttle thought of wait, I am strong I can do this, because I have to do this.
What I want the most are that Alex will grow up loving both his parents, and come out on the other side of this a happy well adjusted kid. I know that life will get easier as time goes by. I also know that kids from divorce can grow up to be well adjusted.. I did, Cameron did, and others I know have been raised in split family homes, and have been ok.. I feel lucky that Cameron is a good dad and that I feel like he will be a constant in Alex's life. We both have the same goal in regards to Alex, and that is his well being. I guess that is all I have for the time being.
